I know I wasn’t responsible for this awful event, but I was involved. It’s an unpleasant realisation to know that, as soon as I’m confronted with a problem – a crack in a glass door – my first thought is the inconvenience it’s going to cause me, and in the end even that was dealt with by someone else as Grant the churchwarden took the entire door away and got it fixed. Did my mood affect how I acted? Had I offered the whole thing in a tiny prayer before beginning, as I continually tell myself I should but vanishingly rarely do, might the Lord have been able to do something different with the situation? How our own sins and temptations interact with other people’s, and build up into something potentially tragic.
Friday, 31 March 2023
Sent On Their Way
There was a concert in the church last week; although
it was my day off I thought I would just drop by on my way home and check that
everything was all right. When I arrived it had just begun to rain; the church
porch was crammed with the usual young people who hang around the building and
I noticed at once that a pane of glass in the inner door was cracked. ‘I suppose
nobody knows how that happened?’ I asked – this kind of low-level practical nonsense
never ceases to annoy – and as it wouldn’t be long before the concert began
thought it was time to move the youngsters on before patrons began arriving and
had to run the gauntlet of pot-smoking teenagers in order to get in. After a bit
of persuasion, less from me than from the college music department staff who
were the organisers, they did indeed move off, grumbling that they’d only just
arrived. That proved to be true, as our CCTV footage showed them moving from
the back of the church when it began to rain, and, as I was realising, in fact
the crack in the glass had almost certainly been made by the door swinging shut
in the strong winds earlier in the day. The only other place in the centre of
the village with any shelter is the railway station, so I presume that’s where
the youngsters went, and where one was stabbed barely a quarter of an hour
later, ending up in hospital. He’s on the mend, apparently, but might well not
have been. ‘Five quid says county lines’, Ellie who runs the Brownies
commented.
As described to the congregation last week. I thought they were placed in the role of therapist, but could not say anything in response, or ask any questions. So here we are. It really was not your fault even in the very small way you think it might have been. Life just happens. Everything is linked to everything else, but in general, to assume responsibility for what happens is to magnify our own importance.
ReplyDelete